Bad Fiancé

It took me this long to share.

I lost my ring and I am still mortified.

It was the night Los Angeles Magazine writer and Beer Belly invited me on a night out with TOKiMONSTA and Chris from Seoul Sausage.

Unfortunately, Chris couldn’t make it but the night still went on. I was happy to meet TOKiMONSTA and spend an evening out with a fellow white guy.

I was honored when I was first found out. THANK YOU AGAIN, Garrett!

We started off at Get Bbul. A Korean seafood grill place. Dinner was fun and it got the ball rolling.

We then went to La Defence, the old Velfare.

We sang and drank and took a cab to El Flamin’ Taco but they were closed because it was Thirsty Thursday.

Some of us ended up at Wi Spa, which was the plan. Garrett wanted to experience the whole KTOWN rounds.

When we arrived, it was already 2:30am.

We were given our locker wristbands and I went downstairs to change.

As I was taking my watch off, I decided not to take off any of my rings. I even thought to myself, I won’t be going into any water so I won’t need to take it off.

We went to the communal area, stopped into some of the rooms and I snuck downstairs earlier than the rest to get home.

I showered, brushed my teeth, changed, called Uber and went home.

When I got home, it was around 4:30am. I informed my boss about being late due to this outing and was expected to sleep in a little bit.

I threw my sweater and shirt off and into the hamper cause it reeked like cigarettes. (Both at the same time, btw).

I came back out to the kitchen and started to take my rings off. I usually leave them on the counter so I don’t forget to put it on before I leave every morning.

I took off my Vogue Rings from Ruby Stella, then reached for my engagement ring. IT WAS NOT ON MY FINGER.


I panicked and started searching through the hamper, my sweater and tank that I took off, my purse and everywhere. I retraced every step. I called Wi Spa and they were going to look but I had to go back.

I called UBER and they picked me up and I arrived shortly after. Soon enough where my clothes and towels were still in the basket I left them in when I left. I went back to the shower area but the drains were too small to have the ring go down.

TONKiMONSTA and her BFF were in the jacuzzis. They asked where I had been because I left early. I told them, I ended up going home but I didn’t have my ring on me so I had to come back.

I kept looking but knew I hadn’t looked carefully enough at home so felt like I was wasting time there cause it clearly wasn’t anywhere to be found.

I called UBER again and came back home. I used my iPhone flashlight and searched everywhere, trying not to wake up Bear Baby.

I called Wi Spa again and asked him to be on the lookout.

I climbed into bed but I was uneasy and couldn’t sleep for the life of me.

Bear Baby woke up by my noise and asked if everything was ok, I answered yes.

I decided I needed to take half a Xanax, so I did and fell asleep in my horror.

Bear Baby woke me up the next morning before he headed to work and I stayed asleep. He kissed me bye and was gone to work.

I wanted to go back to sleep but I couldn’t. I called Jo. She met me at Wi Spa at 9am and we searched everything and everywhere.

What happens next really doesn’t matter because my biggest fear was that I would have to tell Bear Baby.

I felt so bad and shameful and so disappointed in myself.

How could I have been so intoxicated that I misplaced my ring.

I tried to blame everything. My ring was a bit loose, but I would have known. I would have noticed if it fell off…

EVERYTHING was going through my head.

Bear Baby already knew. He overheard my conversation with Wi Spa after I came back searching for it.

I started to cry. I couldn’t even look at him in the eyes without crying the next week.

The most amazing part about this story isn’t the possibility that I could have found it. It was that he didn’t even get mad or upset, or disappointed. He was sad. Sad for me because I lost it.

I was truly humbled. I never thought I would be in a situation where I would ever feel this type of disappointment in myself.

It was unforgivable. I will never be able to forgive myself for being such a Bad Fiancé.



if you see me in photos with a new ring, it’s temporary and it’s fucking gorgeous.


Chelsea & I went to EMC for (my 2nd) dinner and drinks.

She thought she was fat so she kept covering her face! lol

We ordered the Veuve but they were out. AGAIN? Come on EMC, get it together!

We asked Charles for the Ace of Spade for the price of Veuve but instead he gave us this bottle for free.

We didn’t finish it because it wasn’t so yummy.

BUT, thank you Charles!


Oyster shooter for the night!


For food… go to PIGLETVENTURES

I felt really ugly last night.
IMG_1472 IMG_1471

I was annoyed that I was coming out so hideous.


We ordered uni pasta at the end. This is what made me 111 this am.


IMG_1475 IMG_1474

#DW #Repeat

FRAME Le Color Rip Skinny Jeans
Cosabella Never Say Never Prettie Bra
Yves Salomon Raccoon Fur Vest
Zara Tank
Sergio Rossi Sandals

I went out to WEHO


I came back home after WEHO



I went back out… to KTOWN


After HoneyMee, getting into Chelsea’s el coche

I came back home from KTOWN


Tuesday Birthday

On Monday Jo asked me to go to a birthday party at Shan Social House. I hadn’t seen Jo in a while so I agreed.

She came to pick me up but had to twinkle so came up to Bear Baby’s place.

I guess she texted Randy saying we were on our way when he replied confused, “The party is tomorrow”.

We ended up heading to Faith & Flower to catch up and came back home.

Tuesday came around and it was time for the real birthday party.

Jo and I decided to go home early after one drink but what we thought was going to be a hangout (at the bar) ended up being a semi-formal sit down dinner.

Shan Social House on restaurant row across the street from Fogo de Chao.

Plenty of businesses have closed due to… who knows but it’s a bad property to have your restaurant.

To see what my fatass ate go to

As for the night, the food was incredible and I can’t wait to go back.




The crab legs already came peeled!



Birthday Cake Time!


IMG_0746 IMG_0749



IMG_0743 IMG_0742

Just recently I’ve decided to wear all white as much as I can.