It seems like it was just yesterday when my life was perfect.
No bills, no responsibilities and my loving parents both under one roof.
Maybe perfect isn’t the right word because what was brewing between my parents had been going on for years without my knowledge.
This #throwbackthursday is dedicated to my life before everything went upside down.
The time has come and the lease has ended on our rental condo. Two years ago, my mother and I moved out of my childhood mansion. Seven years prior to that, both my parents and I filed for divorce.
I can’t help but blame myself for what has happened; even though I know it really isn’t my fault, it’s only natural to feel like I had a part to do with the downward spiral of what was my perfect life. Perfect within my family, not my marriage.
We’ve been organizing boxes and boxes, getting ready for our move in a week and my mom came across this portrait.
Aside from this, we have albums on top of albums filled with fond memories by our pool, family vacations and celebrations throughout the years.
If I could do it all over again, I would have never begged my parents to stay in Downey the start of my high school year when they wanted to move to Beverly Hills. I would have never gotten engaged at 19 years of age and be married two weeks after my 21st birthday. I would have never allowed myself to be so boy crazy and ruin what could have been a different life for me.
But everything happens for a reason. If I hadn’t gone through everything, I wouldn’t have met my soul mate, the love of my life, the person I was meant to be with forever and eternity.
Some Most times shit happens in life. It’s never peachy and clear. All the shit happens because it makes us who we are and stronger than we ever imagine ourselves to be.
Life is beautiful in that sense. It’s like the clear skies after a rainstorm that makes it all worth while.
If anyone is in a circumstance where it feels like nothing will get better, just look at what I’ve been through and understand that life will get better.
CHEERS to #tbt, it’s been great reminiscing but I have a great life to live today and forever.