My only expectation from Tyler is that he finish school with above average grades. As a kid (especially in grade school) he should be flying through it. Without the discipline now, he will never get out of middle/high school alive.

I look up to very few people in my life and one of them happens to have two children. One in hs and the other Tyler’s age. I see how she’s ‘trained’ her children and I strive to be that way. The hard part for me is that I have to do it on my own, part time.

This is why I emphasize couples not to have children unless they are going to be together forever.

Having to instill my desires while Tyler’s dad is trying to do his part, just doesn’t work.

Of course communication is key and I wish that we had that but we don’t and that’s why we aren’t together. I feel sick to my stomach that we aren’t able to discuss important matters without him getting offended. That’s the problem with older Korean men.

Either way, all I can do is work on my end of the deal because when Tyler grows up, he’s going to remember exactly what happened and will appreciate everything I’ve done.

My tough love comes from my cultural background. Thank god I’m marrying Bear Baby because his style of parenting/loving is the opposite and it’s just the perfect combo!

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Weekend Battle


The hardest thing about seeing my son on the weekends is that when I drop him off, I immediately feel guilty for scolding him for whatever he did wrong.

Just this past Sunday, as soon as he left, I felt a huge weight of emotion because of something his dad (my ex-husband) and I are STILL going through.

I hate to say this out loud because I know people are judging all the time, but I have to let it out.

(And I know I’m not the only one feeling like this.)

I find myself disliking my son sometimes because I hate his dad.

Wow, that sounds just as bad written out as it does in my head.

I try every weekend to do well and be patient, but Tyler is a child and he will get out of hand.

I scold him, yell at him, explain why and tell him I love him, always.

Then Sunday rolls around and he leaves.

I feel guilty for yelling at him because of the short amount of time I get to spend with him.

It’s the hardest battle ever that I had to deal with.

I worry every day about Tyler’s well being. How he’ll be when he grows up.

All I can wish and hope is to teach him to be more like Bear & me.

I know having him on the weekends only isn’t helping but realistically, it’s better than nothing.

I’m not being selfish, I’m providing the best surrounding for Tyler.

Which is to be around his dad who can provide him everything he needs. I just don’t need his character to rub off on him. Although I see it happening when I see him.

I always correct him, of course.

Nobody likes a ‘Know It All”.

My Child Will Not Be Stupid!






Maybe it is, maybe it isn’t (black belt being useless) but either way, I don’t care about that (esp when his dad owns the studio), when he doesn’t know the difference between to and too!

It bugs the shit out of me.

I need to do something about his academics, I’m going to buy some workbooks on Amazon.

#Nintendo X #McDonalds #HappyMeals

My friend’s husband invited Tyler to come out for a PR photo shoot for Nintendo’s Mario Kart 8 Happy Meal program!

I He got to meet #Mario & #Luigi and even take a photo with them! He wished the princess had come too. :P

It was a hot day but he had a lot of fun.

He wanted to drive the carts around but he wasn’t able to.

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#HolidayWeekend #PartTimeMom

The things I do to stay relevant.

I was supposed to pick up Tyler last Friday and went all the way to Santa Ana to meet closer to his dad’s home, only to get a call from Tyler’s dad saying that he has guests over and would like to keep Tyler for the weekend.

Gee thanks, couldn’t have said anything before I left to OC from DTLA Friday morning?

His stupid text read, “I’m on my way but I have guests coming over so can I keep him?”

What am I suppose to say? NO?

That’s not me, so I just replied, “Ok fine, have him facetime me”.

So he did of course.


Before we hung up~ So sad…


Little To Big : 10 Years Later

So I remembered that I had brought Tyler when I first divorced to this Lawry’s at South Coast when they first opened. I was still in OC a lot and would visit the mall to have lunch with friends and family.

I remember when he was barely two. Now in the same seat in the same booth, almost 10 years later!


He cuts his own meat, feeds himself and his feet can barely reach the ground. Barely.

Time sure does fly. It does seem like yesterday when I would lug Tyler around in my Range Rover all over town spending every dollar I had.



#BIRTHDAY Celebrating 5 Years of Life!

Tyler wrote the card for his little sister Mac.


Glad there was adult juice at 10am.


Catering was provided by Bay Cities Deli in Santa Monica. Click Here for food porn.

Can you guess what they’re doing?


HAPPIEST birthday to Mac!!!






The dress was adorable on Mac, I also got one for her little sister since it was too cute!


The kids played after the party at their home while the adults chatted and drank wine! Tyler is such a great big brother/future manny!


We decided to go have #KBBQ for dinner. Tyler rode in their car and this is the photo my friend sent me! Too cute!


At # KogiKing!