My handsome Bear Baby.
The hardest thing about seeing my son on the weekends is that when I drop him off, I immediately feel guilty for scolding him for whatever he did wrong.
Just this past Sunday, as soon as he left, I felt a huge weight of emotion because of something his dad (my ex-husband) and I are STILL going through.
I hate to say this out loud because I know people are judging all the time, but I have to let it out.
(And I know I’m not the only one feeling like this.)
I find myself disliking my son sometimes because I hate his dad.
Wow, that sounds just as bad written out as it does in my head.
I try every weekend to do well and be patient, but Tyler is a child and he will get out of hand.
I scold him, yell at him, explain why and tell him I love him, always.
Then Sunday rolls around and he leaves.
I feel guilty for yelling at him because of the short amount of time I get to spend with him.
It’s the hardest battle ever that I had to deal with.
I worry every day about Tyler’s well being. How he’ll be when he grows up.
All I can wish and hope is to teach him to be more like Bear & me.
I know having him on the weekends only isn’t helping but realistically, it’s better than nothing.
I’m not being selfish, I’m providing the best surrounding for Tyler.
Which is to be around his dad who can provide him everything he needs. I just don’t need his character to rub off on him. Although I see it happening when I see him.
I always correct him, of course.
Nobody likes a ‘Know It All”.
#partTIMEmommy -> FULL TIME STRESS
Maybe it is, maybe it isn’t (black belt being useless) but either way, I don’t care about that (esp when his dad owns the studio), when he doesn’t know the difference between to and too!
It bugs the shit out of me.
I need to do something about his academics, I’m going to buy some workbooks on Amazon.
My friend’s husband invited Tyler to come out for a PR photo shoot for Nintendo’s Mario Kart 8 Happy Meal program!
I He got to meet #Mario & #Luigi and even take a photo with them! He wished the princess had come too. :P
It was a hot day but he had a lot of fun.
He wanted to drive the carts around but he wasn’t able to.
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