I hate playing games. I think I’m more aggressive with guys that I meet because I’ve been burned.

Ok so please don’t take it the wrong way. I have no feelings left for bb, its not wrong to talk about it. (As long as I’m not bashing the guy). I opened myself up the past 2 relationships and each time, it didn’t work out. Different reasons for each situation, but still. Maybe I have this guard up that I’m not aware of. Like I don’t want to jump into another relationship. Which I don’t, or at least I don’t think I should. But who says I can’t be in a relationship with one guy that I like to spend time with when I’m NOT doing something for myself. Like the down times I’m at home. I don’t like being @ home so I’ve been going out. But the going out has made me make bad choices IE eating.

I want a relationship where its comfortable enough to be myself and have the other person respect what I do. Its always a battle.

Maybe I’m just lonely. Maybe I just want guys that don’t give me attention.

Maybe I don’t know what I want, that’s why I’m single.

All I know is that I’m lonely. Can I hang with a guy and just be friends? I don’t want to sleep with the guy. But maybe spend time with each other, enjoy each other’s company, maybe cuddle here & there. Appreciate each other’s loneliness and not cross the line of fucking. Of course it would have to be someone I’m attracted to too. If we’re gonna be hanging out, I don’t want to hang out with someone that I’d be embarrassed to hang out with. Lol. Ok that was mean, but just being honest.

I always want what I can’t have. All these guys are playing games with me. Unless they’re up for some real shit, I get annoyed. I don’t have time. Business or pleasure?

Business being future cause u have to invest into it. Pleasure being, whatever you want pleasure to be. Some would say sex, but I won’t say sex because there’s a double standard. My pleasure is kissing. Kissing is harmless. Older guys, younger guys, asians, latinos, girls, whoever I’m attracted to. Of course I don’t go around kissing everyone, it happens rarely but to the ones I’ve connected with.

Now don’t go getting all riled up, already thinking whatever your crazy judgemental brain is thinking, its all stuff people think but never say.

I think sometimes these guys get all personal after I kiss them. Come on, I didn’t ask u to marry me, so take a chill pill. I enjoyed it and hopefully u did, so let’s just be nonchalant~

*remember, if you think I’m writing about you at any time of my blogcidents, get off your high horse, I’m generalizing. NO ONE SPECIFIC…

There is one person that I’m thinking of right now, but ill keep that to myself.

He makes me smile!!!!


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