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Right Guy? Wrong Time?

How do you know when you meet the person you’re suppose to spend the rest of your life with. I thought I did 7 months ago for 3 months, until we moved in and everything went sour. We fought about every stupid thing.

I hated the way he didn’t care about keeping thing tidy and clean after I had just cleaned the whole house. First of all, I’ve always had a cleaning lady so to clean my own house is a big step for me.
I guess it was us adjusting to our living habits.
But aside from all the little things that bothered us, the importance was I knew he loved me unconditionally. He would be there for me when I needed and he treated me like his queen. (When things were good of course) He could be mean when we were fighting but he always acknowledged his mistake and apologized. I know he wants to take care of me and give me the world if he could but timing isn’t right. He’s finally settled into his career and starting fresh and on the right foot, but after several months of uncertainty, I’ve lost my respect and hope for a great future with him. It’s not his fault, it mine because I don’t have the patience.
After this whole situation, he still wants to work it out and in my heart I still love him but not sure if it would work out. We’ve lost trust for each other and now it’s come to a point where there’s no turning back.
I don’t deserve him, I don’t deserve a man who loves me so much while I’m trying to push him away. I’m confused because there’s the man who’s text book right and the man who’s right for me. I can’t differentiate what is important to me because I get caught between the 2. I want it all, and with that said, I know I just don’t know what I want yet.

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