Which is for you?
I battle from this dilemma almost everyday. I think because of these to choices, my relationship failed and I won’t be having ANY relationships in the future.
Traditional: Go to college after high school. Find a companion. Get Married. Have kids. Live in the burbs. Live a family life. Send your kids off. And it goes on and on and on.
I was too busy living life and wanting to do what I wanted when I wanted.
I graduated high school and went to a JC for a little while working at a law firm PT. But when I realized I didn’t really have to work because my parents were going to support me, I stopped.
I only started working my senior year in hs for ROP, which meant I got to leave school early. I guess I never cared about academics. I was more into boys, fashion, cars and being out and being seen.
After a childhood of being on stage, I decided this was what I enjoyed so I started taking acting classes.
Fast forward 10 years and here I am.
I’ve been thru the marriage, divorce and child. I’ve been thru the partying stage. I’ve been thru the 9-5 job which I immensely loved!
I think I’ve lived my adult life backwards, and maybe thats the reason why I don’t mesh well with relationships!
I don’t know if the family life is for me. With the career I have in mind for myself, it sure won’t be the traditional lifestyle that any future husband will want.
Although I would want both, and I’m sure it could be possible, but it’s just going to be twice as hard and I would have to find someone just as understanding.
To do it on my own will be easy in either lifestyle. I can give up my career get married again, have more kids and just be a mom and be dissatisfied with my life because I didn’t follow my dreams. OR I could follow my dreams and be dissatisfied with my life because I don’t have anyone to share it with for the rest of my life and even though I have one son, he won’t have any siblings to grow up with. (I hope my ex hubby gets married soon so he can have the kids I don’t need to have). And I worry about my son, because I was the only child and I was and still get lonely.
Either way, I won’t have everything I want. So it’s a fork in the road.
A. Do my thing and live alone
B. Don’t do my thing and appreciate the man in my life and look forward to a wonderful future together minus my dream
C. Work extra hard and make both work
I choose C