We came by the Irvine Korean market to get a bag of rice. Tyler had the urge to stop by the mirror and check himself out.
He does NOT get that from me. I rarely look in the mirror! My cutie pie smiles so beautifully, even with his braces…
I have no stress in life when I hear him laugh and see him smile from ear to ear!
He spent the weekend with his daddy on Halloween because he always has an event for work with kids.
I decided to visit my little man on Sunday because it’s been way too long.
Something always seem to come up and me being the nice person that I am, I always allow him to take him for the weekend. That means less time with me, but I don’t realize the affect it has on our relationship and on me until I see him.
This Sunday was the worst for me. I broke down crying because I felt so out of touch with my son. I felt like a babysitter and I felt distant.
I just have to be more stern about the weekends now. I can’t afford to lose time with him especially with him going into the teens soon and hitting puberty. I need him to be my little boy and know that I’m here for him.
I didn’t think it would be this way, but it just keeps getting harder and harder.
I probably cried all day Sunday. From the second I picked him up til I got home. The movie we watched didn’t help either. I teared up a few times when they were talking about mommy stuff, family stuff…life.
I just have to figure out how to spend more time with him…
Living far from my son is too hard.